Thursday, June 21, 2012

So We Can Fix You -- Maybe --

...but the cure will make you wish you were dead.

I'm actually off the steroids now, and have been for a solid week, but I'm still recovering.

Just head's up? If anyone ever suggests you go on these evil bastards, and you aren't actually dying -- which I understand they're good for people who are actually about to keel over -- just saying no.


Don't say no.

Say fuck no.

Although my physician suggests (tolerantly) that not everyone reacts to them as strongly as I did.

Which -- yow -- I should hope not.

I can still barely work. I have no energy. I lie about thinking cheery thoughts like, well, if I did get pneumonia from lying on my back too long, and I died, then I wouldn't have to deal with any of this stupid shit at school anymore, that would be so nice. I don't want to eat. I don't want to drink rum. I don't want to write. (Which -- if you know me -- those last two are just -- wow. I always want to write and drink rum.)

I hope this goes away soon.

1 comment:

Anonymous said...

Ah, steroids! You gain weight, get moonfaced, feel and look 25 years older, can't sleep, can't do much of anything. The steroids themselves are pretty bad, but coming off of them is really bad. It's hard to see why taking them and tapering off of them is better than just enduring the thing you're taking them for.

But for most people they are no big deal. Huh? What Amazons are these that can take and then not take steroids without welcoming death?

It sounds like you're reacting pretty normally to me. But there is a future without steroids for you. A better one. Really.