Thursday, June 25, 2026

What I'm Reading Now

I'm reading a bunch of stuff to review for my SF book columns. My favorite part of writing these columns is that I get (1) free books and (b) early access to books. Like, for example, I have an advance copy of Audrey Niffenegger's sequel to The Time Traveler's Wife, which I have been waiting to read for literally decades. I also got Claire North's new book, and Laurie Frankel's new book, and --

ANYWAY.

Here's what I have been reading which aren't books for my review columns.


T.J. Klune, We Burned So Bright

A black hole is about to swallow the entire solar system, including Earth. What do you do with your last few weeks? Don and Rodney, who lost their emotionally troubled son some years earlier, make a road trip with his ashes, mourning his loss as well as the end of the world. Good writing here, but don't expect a happy ending.

I've been following Klune since his self-publishing days, and this was readable, but I can't really recommend it, unless you like to feel unhappy.


David Lodge, Changing Places

My favorite book by Lodge is Nice Work, a novel that follows two people, a university lecturer and a captain of industry as they "shadow" one another at work. This lets Lodge compare the two different worlds of the academy and the factory, which lets him have a lot of fun. Here, in this early novel -- which I am reading for the first time, because the public libraries I had access to before never had a copy -- he does something of the same, having a British professor change places with an American professor for six months of one academic year.

The novel was first published in 1975, and is set in 1969. But a lot of the circumstances it concerns itself with (student protests, people fleeing the US to seek abortions in the UK, problems with granting tenure) still apply, or I guess I should say apply again. Lodge seemed mostly to be fascinated with the difference in sexual mores in the two countries -- Britain being more staid, and California more sexually unbound. This part of the two societies is that which interested me least, frankly, and I wish he had spent more time on the differences in the academic worlds, or the different standards of living, or anything except who is fucking who. Though that was probably a big deal to Lodge, back in 1975, I don't know.

The book is also slightly meta, with interviews and news stories and film scripts scattered throughout; and the ending isn't an ending. The book just quits.

Anyway. Readable, but not as good as Nice Work.


Lauren Hough, Monster of a Land

In this non-fiction book, Hough refits a van into a camper of sorts, and with her dog Woody Guthrie sets off to follow in the footsteps of John Steinbeck, driving around America with her dog. I love road trip books, and books with dogs, and Travels with Charlie, so I snapped this one up.

As with Steinbeck's book, the real subject matter here is America and its people. Steinbeck ended up down in New Orleans, where the schools were being integrated and people were yelling hateful things at six year olds. But before that, he talked to a lot of people and saw a lot of the country. I especially enjoyed his time in Texas.

Hough, who starts in Texas, also talks to people. She ends up in Colorado, spending an isolated week at a lake and realizing she's lonely -- weird, because mostly she doesn't like people. As she travels through the high plains of the Dakotas, Montana, and a bit of Idaho, she meets a lot of people who are also living out of their vans or cars, and a couple who are walking around the country on foot. Student loans and a broken economy are the main culprits, though Hough admits that substance abuse plays its part. She also meets an Evangelical family (Idaho) where the kids are clearly being abused.

The dog is great, and Hough has some important points to make. I would have liked more of the trip, though, to be honest.

Fair warning, I had terrible nightmares after reading this one straight through, all in one day.


Lisa Unger, Darkness My Old Friend

This one is a mystery novel. I think I must have read another book in the series -- not this one -- because some of the characters and the setting seem familiar to me. It's set in The Hollow, a small community in upstate New York, with a small enough population that pretty much everyone knows everyone else.

It's a little too well written and complex to be a mystery novel, if you know what I mean. But there is a mystery: a missing woman in the past, and a missing woman in the present, plus a guy who used to be a cop and, having retired, is now taking care of the people who live around him. He's the one who acts as the private detective. It reminds me a little of Tana French, except her writing is more compelling.

The characters are well done. The pacing is a bit slow, and the mystery is pretty dark (hence the title, I guess). I liked it well enough that I've put a couple more of Unger's books on hold.


Rumer Godden, Greengage Summer

I can't decide if I like Godden or not. I read another one of her books a month or so ago, In This House of Brede, which I remember being entranced by. That's a story about a woman who joins a community of nuns, and how it goes for about a decade. I like hearing about worlds I will never enter, which was part of the attraction of that one.

This was follows four British children, ages four to sixteen, who end up stranded at a French hotel while their mother is in a French hospital with what sounds like sepsis. It's set six or seven years after the end of WWII, I think. In any case, there's a French orphan in his midteens whose mother apparently went with soldiers, leaving behind this kid and a younger half-sister, who the boy has lost track of.

There's quite a bit of French dialogue, which I enjoyed being able to read, and a bank robber, and French cuisine. A kind of a Lord of the Flies summer -- no one is taking care of any of the children here, not the British kids and not the French orphan. They have to take care of themselves, while bad things are clearly happening around them.

I enjoyed this, but it hasn't convinced me to read more Godden, which is a shame, because she wrote about a billion books. If I liked her a lot, that would give me reading  fodder for quite some time.



Leonora Chu, Little Soldiers: An American Boy, A Chinese School, and the Race to Achieve

Leonora Chu is a reporter, now based in Berlin. Back when she wrote this, she and her husband were living in Shanghai, where they decided to put their three-year-old son in a prestigious local preschool. The book is about Chinese schools, with that school as one example and less selective schools as others. Chu is appalled by the (to be fair, appalling) authoritarian nature of the pre-school, in which kids are manhandled into obedience, threatened and force-fed and shamed.

But she has to admit, after she looks at how Chinese children behave as they continue their schooling, that this appalling harshness leads to good results. At one point, she compares an American middle-school math class to a Chinese middle-school math class. Clearly, the Chinese students are better able to think about math, to solve problems, and to learn. But are they better at humanities? Well, yes. They're better at that too. Having been forced to memorize poems as very young children, they have a richer, deeper knowledge base to work with. Also, Chinese schools demand a lot from their students, and (sometimes) get it. 

Chu does show us what happens to the school children who can't do the work, or who come from bad schools, and how these kids have almost no chance to succeed in China. In particular, she writes about the children who grow up separate from their parents, raised by grandparents in the country while the parents work long hours in some city, or at transient labor. These children, whose grandparents are often illiterate, mostly do not do well in the Chinese system. I'm not sure that America does any better with its poor or difficult children though.

This is very readable, and Chu presents the evidence fairly. I think her thesis is that Chinese schools turn out children who are afraid to stand out or to defy authority. I'm not sure that's what her evidence shows, though. If you're interested in education, you might have a look at this one.


Wednesday, June 24, 2026

Weather Report

We've had a (relatively) cool summer so far, with highs in the 80s. But come July, the weather forecast says we're going to get into the 90s. UGH.

Today is cool and damp, because of all the rain we've been having. 

Fourteen more weeks of summer.



Monday, June 22, 2026

Junti in 2020

 My little cat came up in my FB memories. She was so pretty.


Sunday, June 21, 2026

Piano Update

I am making progress!

I still am just teaching myself -- no formal lessons yet. I acquired this set of books as well as a couple other books and am working my way through them. My musical ignorance is a problem (what does 'key of G' mean?). The internet is a little bit of help.

I might have told y'all this story before, but we had no music at all in the house when I was growing up. My father had a transistor radio which he would use to listen to baseball games on, but not music. No music at school either, not in Louisiana. There was band in high school, but I didn't play an instrument. 

In high school, I was bused to the girl's school in Jefferson Parrish, which was about an hour away. So I got to listen to the radio (played by the bus driver) for two hours a day.

When I was about fourteen, my father bought a sound system for some reason, which included a stereo and a turntable, except we had no records except the one that came with, Johnny Horton's Greatest Hits. After a while, I bought Bridge Over Troubled Waters. How did I know who Simon and Garfunkel were? I can't remember. Maybe those bus rides?

Anyway! My point here is that I grew up very nearly musically illiterate, so learning even on this very basic level is a revelation. Also, fascinating.

I'm still thinking about signing up for formal lessons.


Friday, June 19, 2026

My garden

I'm growing herbs, a fig tree, rose bushes, and a watermelon in my raised bed garden. Some of these are in the plastic crates that were formerly used for recycling -- when the city gave us wheeled carts instead, they said we should repurpose the plastic crates. The rest are a DIY wooden beds I filled with dirt bought in sacks from the local Harps.

So far the rose buses are doing wonderfully, as are the herbs.  I have some tiny watermelons on the watermelon vines.

Tomatoes don't do well here because the squirrels eat them off the vine before they can ripen. I'm hoping that won't happen with the watermelons.

I've always wanted to grow peas. Maybe next year!

My first watermelon!


Thursday, June 18, 2026

Iran War

I'm still avoiding news and most of social media, but I saw that Trump has actually lost the Iran War? He lost it?

Or did he just get bored and wander away, and so the war was lost that way?

MAGA, man.


(Fox Goggles)

Tuesday, June 16, 2026

Gender Wars

I was reading Fraser Sherman's post about how men enforce masculinity, or rather toxic masculinity. It led me to thinking about how a certain kind of conservative views gender -- specifically, that there is only one correct way to perform a given gender. 

I was thinking of a specific conservative I know, who said if their daughter put makeup on their son (the daughter was about five, the son about three) the makeup would be in the trash and both kids would get 'whooped,' to use their language.

Why such an over-reaction to normal play on the part of their kids? Especially since -- according to that kind of conservative -- gender is natural and fixed? If you can't change someone's gender, why do we need to terrorize children into performing their gender properly?

Sherman says this:

As I’ve discussed earlier, part of this is the toxic-masculine insistence that there’s only one way to be a man. Because if there are alternatives, then that concept of manhood — it doesn’t matter if we’re toxic, we’re guys, we can’t help it! — becomes invalid.

That's what's going on, I think. This sort of person has been, themselves, abused into performing gender this one specific way. They've been damaged. They have had a neurosis installed in them by their society or their family or both. This neurosis, this damage, has left them terrified of gender not being performed in one specific way. 

What are they doing about this damage? Well, they're damaging their children in exactly the same way. Anything else is just too frightening for them.

It's why they insist on trying to compel everyone else to damage their children as well: because if anyone is performing gender in a way that doesn't match the "right" way, then they are reminded of their own damage. Maybe they are even forced to notice how they're damaging their children. Guilt and terror follow.

Sherman also points out that not being a specific sort of masculine -- or a specific sort of feminine -- terrifies them because they don't have an identity outside of that specific gender. What are they, if they aren't "man" or "woman"? They can't just be a human. They can't just be some self not defined by other people. The neurosis doesn't let them be that. 

For example: it doesn't bother me that other people perform gender some way I don't. Like, some people wear makeup and have their nails done. Some people wear their hair long or short. Some people wear skirts and some have earrings. Some people modify their bodies with plastic surgery. Some people spend their lives having kids, and some spend their lives at beauty pageants. I don't do any of that, but why would I care if other people do? I'd have to be neurotic to care about that.

I should feel sorry for the damaged people, I suppose. 

But I don't. When you're damaged, the way to react is to that damage is to seek therapy, or whatever else you need to do, to heal your own trauma. 

The thing not to do? Damage others in a vain attempt to make yourself feel better.





Monday, June 15, 2026

Raeburn Miller

I was browsing the blog and came across this post I wrote 20 years ago now.

Part of it is about assessment in academic classes, and part of it is about Raeburn Miller, who had enormous influence on my life.

He died in 1990, I see from the internet. I was wondering if anyone else remembers him? A good poet and a great teacher. 

World Events

I haven't really been paying attention to the news for the past week or so, because I needed a break. It's been so depressing. But apparently Trump is turning the White House into a trailer park. And God is reacting by sending algae and giant storms and killing heat.

Also he's won the Iran War yet again. This makes like eleven times, doesn't it?

Also some sort of important sports event happened in New York.

In other news, I have reached the point in my piano lessons where I am introduced to sharps and I've got blisters on my thumbs because the way I hit Middle C (with both of them) hits right at the juncture of nail and flesh.

 


Sunday, June 14, 2026

Fig Season!

It's fig season again!


(In the background, the teapot my kid bought me, which looks like the Frog King)

Wait, I AM an Adult

I just re-read yesterday's post and realized something even weirder than my kid being an adult. 

I'M an adult.

Like, I do the things I'm supposed to do. 

I pay my bills. I walk the dog. I do the laundry every Monday. I have this rule I follow, which is that I always leave a clean kitchen before I go to bed -- that means all the dishes in the dishwasher, the sink scrubbed out, the floor swept. I take out the trash and recycling, and I put the bins out on bin night. I compost.

I practice my piano every day. I write every day. I go to the library every Sunday and take all my books back on time. I go to bed at a reasonable hour and wake up early every morning.

I even eat salads! Like an adult!

How did this happen?

Saturday, June 13, 2026

I have raised an adult

The kid and his husband have flown off for a week in the Outer Banks (with the husband's family). I had almost nothing to do with any of this -- the kid didn't need my advice for booking the flights, or renting the car. They didn't need my help getting to the airport. I didn't have anything to do with their packing.

I'm feeding the cat while they're gone. That's it.

My kid is an adult. 

(I remember taking the kid to the Outer Banks when they were about two, staying with my family. That little little kid in the sunhat has become an adult. I hope he remembers to wear his sunhat at the beach. You will not believe the restraint I am practicing to keep from saying that to him.)

Friday, June 12, 2026

Read This Thread at BlueSky

 Read this thread about why Conservatives oppose certain treatments and approve of others.

There are two pillars of conservative medicine: One is eugenics, the other is a hatred of science as a method of discerning objective truths and a need to replace scientific truth-finding with declarations from conservative authorities.

 

Thursday, June 11, 2026

Piano Update

I have assembled instruction books and Dr Skull's ancient Kutzweil and am busily engaged in teaching myself to play the piano. 

Dr Skull, who had actual piano lessons as a kid, cannot stop himself from backseat teaching. Since I don't understand a single thing he tries to tell me, this is doing no good, but no real harm either.

I should probably find someone to give me lessons. But I'm enjoying the process so far, so I'll stick with this for a bit.


Wednesday, June 10, 2026

My Yard is Full of Fireflies

I dislike summer intensely, as you all know, but I must admit I love this particular season, when -- thanks to the green space behind my house -- my yard is filled with fireflies.

They're so pretty. Also, it's fun to watch the neighbor's cat trying to catch them.

Shamus just ignores them.